The Overwhelm has subsided. Or perhaps Time is healing some wounds that makes this job almost palatable. It helps that I have found Allies, a necessity if you are going to survive in the OR. I don’t know what it is about this environment that makes it difficult to feel like part of the team. I need to ponder that question over a glass of wine, because I definitely can’t make sense of it without a buzz!

The business I wanted to start is now on hold. Now is not the right time for it. The business partner I was counting on was someone who I personally adore, but lacks business experience and knowledge of the kind of work it takes to get a big dream up and running. It has been difficult for us to connect outside of work. I’m a big believer that if things are meant to be, they happen with some ease.

Another thought that crossed my mind when thinking about having a business partner is that I have always been that person who leads a team project and ends up doing all the work. That was fine in grade school, high school, and college, but I think I finally need to say NO to this one. Or maybe just a different partner, one who could share the work of building the business plan. Maybe no partner at all? The fever for running my own business is still burning only now I have to decide which idea to pursue.

For now I’m not leaving OR nursing. I’m sticking it out until I can figure out my next move. Until then, I have a lot to think about.